FAREWELL Three years ago I was attracted and dazzled into the world of the domination. I wanted to discover, to understand, to experiment ... I realized that, as in every other walk of life, there is a dirty side to it and a fulfilling aspect as well: men slaves, out of mere attraction, and submissive males that take part in this incredible role play with my very norms. Being a professional Dominatrix has fired many a debate on rights, limits, authorizations and, above all, the moral aspect and the most boring of debates on whether being a Pro-Dom is or is not prostitution. For me this has been the most boring not only because of the implied obligation of constantly having to give my version of the facts to people who will keep on thinking what they like anyway (by the way, all of whom conceal themselves behind nicks and masks, as we all know that slander leads to the courts ... right my little 'brave' boy?? ... it is impossible to demonstrate what does not exist ...). For me it is, has been and always will be clear: eroticism is not sex. Let’s leave it at that. Well, I have simply got tired of it all… It just isn’t fun anymore. I like games in which rules are clear and all players abide by the same rules. Nevertheless together with those who take BDSM play seriously, there are those for whom it is their single vital option, and those who open debates under the slogan "death to feminist prostitutes" (while hiding their heartfelt frustration as poor little insignificant male chauvinists), and I have also seen prostitutes who disguise themselves as Dominatrixes ... oh well... One thing is to enjoy the play while it lasts, while making it enjoyable at the same time for whoever is playing with you, and quite another is to believe that a Dominatrix goes about her life brandishing a whip and marking the bottom of every and every man she meets... It seems some keep forgetting that the only objective condition to be Dominatrix is that the submissive grants you the power to be one... My slave samantha has been with me for three years. And although we have both liked this role play (the truth is that it no longer excites us nor is the passion it used to be), there is a basis of friendship, fondness, and love that has become one of the most serious relationships in my life, and we have never thought even about having sex (P.S.: " sam, although I do not see you as an attractive male for me, I will always recognize you as my daddy, or mummy ... depending on how I dress you … hahahaha ... you know I love you very much, don’t you my chubby one? ") In my three years of practice, I have never once gone to bed or had sex with any submissives (it always seemed to me unethical to accept tribute in exchange for sexual services) and always I have made it clear in my website: "If you are interested in sex, this is no place for you" ... but in spite of this, jealousy, envy and insecurity lead human beings to destroying those icons they are scared of ... touché... I take advantage of this missive to say goodbye to professional BDSM. My journey in these things has ended, it is a cycle that has come to an end and has left me wonderful memories – "Natalie, meeting you has been one of the most beautiful gifts of my life, and there will always be a place in my heart for you" – of exceptional men capable of giving all of themselves away without reservations with uncommon generosity and, of course, there is also the odd small bitterness, which I have already forgiven and which will only remain to remind me of the senselessness of some. This journey has, above all, been a catharsis, my point of inflection with the male chauvinist world, with cheap bourgeois morality, with the hypocrisy and cowardice of those who attack and then cower behind anonymity. Never have I covered my face, among other things because I have never been ashamed of my decisions. It has been an exciting experience that has shown me "the other side" of men and has restored my confidence in the masculine world. It will be a treasure that I will take with me for the rest of my life. To all of you, thank you very much.
Elle Marbella, on august 8, 2009
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